I’ve just finished my first proper 9-5 in a what I shall call a hectic few months, and boy oh boy does it feel great! I haven’t had time to write a ‘proper’ post for tonights blog however I’ve got some spoken word I wrote a few days ago that I wish to share. It’s been a bit up and down I’m losing one friend and I can tell another one’s going as well. It’s a bit of a nightmare to be honest, I’ll get over it though I guess! I’m back on 9-5 tomorrow as well so I best get writing tonight so I’ve got something for you guys tomorrow! Enjoy and I’ve got some big plans coming for next week! All shall be explained in tomorrows post, it’s something that will benefit us ‘bloggers’ I can’t give to much away as of now but I shall write it all up tonight and post it tomorrow! Like I said enjoy and if there’s any comments you have, good or bad I don’t mind! It’s all love! Can you tell I’m in a much happier mood now? I’ve finally found a job I enjoy! Right enough rambling, here we are;
It’s funny, I remember the days that we walked the same path and we crossed the same roads,
But today I’m lost, crossed, intertwined as each of our souls,
Have departed and dispersed and the feelings of friendships are immersed,
Within the depths of previous thoughts and feelings we once un-earthered.
Do you remember the days where we could conversate for hours upon end?
But when I saw you today it was as if we were strangers again.
I know you have work to get done and really, so do I
But we’ve lost our connection and now I wonder why?
I’m feeling like there’s a sense of hostility building inside this serenity,
The friendship and bonds we had and have is now the enemy,
My thoughts and my previous tendencies,
Are rendezvousing with a lost entity,
But this friendship is sick and it doesn’t seem as if there’s a remedy.
I meet up with you even though a few years have gone past,
We still chat via text but it just doesn’t last,
See we chat every other week but it just hasn’t got that same buzz,
Remember we used to chat everyday, but it’s gone now, I’m lost and feeling stuck.
Words and verbs, metaphors that I used to use,
Are now not spoken as they’re overly used.
We say the same things but format our vocabulary,
This feeling sucks and I’m losing my sanity.
See we used to have the strongest of bonds that didn’t match anything else,
You might of saw it differently but really that’s how I felt.
I guess the reason we become so distant is because we began to grow up,
That was the fact we parted and the buzz fell into the rough.
You gained new friends and I’m not mad at that,
I’m just glad you’re enjoying life and I can deal with that.
But is it wrong I want my friend back, even though we’ve both changed?
Is it strange that things deep down just aren’t feeling the same?
It’s funny as we walk the same paths where we once laughed,
But all we do now is smile and walk graciously past.
The connection and tether of friendship just broke off and it’s blowing into the wind,
Almost as if that bonds been trashed and it’s thrown in the bin.
As I sit here and the rain stumbles upon my glass frames,
I’m imagining a life without hearing your name.
Is it odd that I speak of you so high and mighty?
Is it odd as friends I want to hold and hug you and feel so tightly?
I’m never going to stop loving you as we once were,
But the fact of the matter is it’s not as it once were.
You’ve got a boyfriend and you’re acting different trying to think that I want to get physical,
Truth is I’m just respecting you, trying re-kindling our friendship why you acting all cynical.
Don’t flirt with me and expect me not to do it back,
I wanted to chill for the day you were the one who introduced that.
I love you for who you are, deep down as a friend,
But if it’s going to be this way I think it might have to put it to an end.
You see me as someone who’s trying to flirt and wants to be something else,
Truth is I’m not, I’m always a friend if all else fails.
I’m always your friend don’t ever forget that,
I’m sorry for the way I acted; I hope you can respect that.
I just want to re-kindle those feelings we once had,
But if you want to call it a day I won’t get mad.
What you think guys? I wrote this a while ago and it relates to the post from yesterday but to tell you the truth it hits home even more, as I stated earlier I’m starting to lose another friend. Our bond has just gone it seems and it’s almost as if we’re strangers now, but I’m not going to kick up a huge fuss, that’s life. The post yesterday was just me venting it all out, I’m in a much happier mood!
Any thoughts please comment!
Enjoy your day! *ps I write this on my mobile so if there’s any spelling or grammatical errors please point them out!